Angels In My Life
Shortly after my first big D-day, I was in a very dark place. I was pretending all was well yet I was dying inside. He had been moved out almost a month and the truth of my life was overwhelming in my secret silence. I had a girls cruise with dear friends that had been planned a few years earlier and I wasn’t sure if I would be able to make it because of my new circumstances. I hadn’t told anyone much, other than a diluted version to some family, so I looked forward to going on the trip feeling “normal” again.
We had all jokingly agreed to not lose weight and instead embrace our birthday milestone we were celebrating. But I had lost SO much weight and was abnormally emotional.
My friends confronted me with their concerns one night. One of my greatest fears was getting cancer young like my mom and this was their conclusion. My admission of the lies and betrayals of a person I married that they had come to love over the years was heartbreaking. To say the truth out loud to those that love me so much seemed surreal like it couldn’t possibly still be true! Like I was explaining a horrific nightmare but I was really describing my life. We cried until we thought there were no more tears to give.
The next night I had a moment of feeling the magnitude of all I had been carrying and I collapsed on the bed in a fetal position. There I felt a release of all I had been holding in and became lifeless. Slowly as tears streamed down my cheeks, eyes too swollen to see and my body too weak to move, I felt warm loving hands touching my sore muscles. Their crying broke the silence, more hands joined transferring spiritual strength that literally filled my broken body and soul. I could feel the love and protection of angels and from these amazing women.
I will never forget this spiritual experience that was a springboard to get me home and have the courage to fight for me. I was more powerful because of their strength. They gave me this picture “She Will Find What is Lost” by Brian Kershisnik that hangs in my home as a reminder of that amazing experience.
I am forever thankful for my earthly angels.
How have you seen angels?
