My life as I had envisioned it as a little girl has not been even close to that. But it has also far exceeded what I could have ever comprehended too. I have had to take so many different routes than I originally wanted to take. All with Christ by my side.

When I was 15, my mom was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer. Watching her want to fight in a way her body physically couldn’t, is one of the hardest things I’ve ever seen happen. After she died, I was devastated and hurt yet I gained a knowledge of Christs Atonement and how it applied personally to me in life changing ways.

After I graduated from college I was guest performing with a professional dance company when I found out I was pregnant. I knew I wanted to be a mom but I was perplexed at the timing. I learned that God has his timeline and we were supposed to start our family. I wouldn’t change the fitting of things now and the blessing my son has been to my life.

A few years later we were trying to expand our family and I couldn’t stay pregnant. It was such a taxing time physically, emotionally and spiritually. There was so much unsureness in the process. I got my Real Estate License because I had not anticipated I would have free time with a child in school already. Shortly after I was pregnant and delivered my second child. I trusted in Gods timing again. I see the blessings of what I learned in that year waiting.

Fast forward to other trials involving job changes, my kids and health issues being reminders of Gods timeline for me and that Christ is always near.

On Christmas Eve 2018 my life as I knew it crumbled in an instant when I saw his work phone. Through the following months of confusion and betrayal trauma I relied heavily on what I knew from before. I knew that God was aware of me and my kids and had a plan for us. I knew that Christ was carrying me when I could barely put one foot in front of the other. I knew that in the dark hole of divorce and the daunting new path in front of me I was not alone and would be okay. I didn’t know how I would but I had faith that we could.

I recognize God and Christ in all the unfairness offering relief and hope.

How is God in your life?

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