When you see the word DIVORCE..what comes to mind? I am sad to admit that before I was actually divorced I had my own judgements and because I truly believed that would never even be an option for me I didn’t need to really understand it either.

But now with my own experience I have learned that for some divorce is the only option. It was the choices made by a spouse that made it even become a realistic choice. It is a forced course of action and for me it is my new found freedom. I never even believed that God would give me the answer to leave my marriage but every time I would second guess my decision another heavenly miracle would encourage me down the road to divorce and confirm that what I was doing was absolutely the best of the two options before me.
A few weeks ago I was listening to a talk about some of the hardships we endure like losing a spouse or loved one and even divorce. It was the first time the thought came in my mind how thankful I am for the opportunity to be divorced. It has provided a safe and healthy option for me to find a path that is even better for me because I was in a marriage where our realities were so drastically different but I was a part of it because we were married. I see now how unhealthy it was knowing just part of his reality.
I have a list of truths that I know happened and they are non-negotiable. These facts also confirm my impressions and so when new information surfaces I don’t even need to know if it’s true or not. I have enough confirmed truths to know why we are divorced and the new information only helps solidify again how thankful I am that we are divorced. There were times I thought things were really weird and it didn’t make sense and now I know they really were that weird and I am not crazy! Gaslighting was my life and by seeking safety I also gained clarity and truth.
My new map is so promising with so much joy in the journey. I am discovering things I never knew I was possible to obtain. I have never had so much faith in my life and been more dependent on God. I know more than ever He knows me better than myself and gives me inspiration and healing to be able to move on. He has helped me find my wings.
I love the quote “I am doing this for future me, so she gets to live the life she deserves.” I know that God has always been present and aware of me. I know He blessed me still in even all the 21 years I never even knew his lies. I was not forgotten and protected in ways I didn’t see until now. I am so blessed to be divorced. “You can’t heal in the environment you got sick!”