Happy Galentine’s Day

I will never forget my first Galentine’s Day.

We had been separated for over a month and as I was leaving Costco I saw him come walking in. I didn’t know if he saw me but then he approached and explained how he knew I was there. As he stood by my cart my body and mind had so many mixed flashing feelings. On one hand I wanted to suggest we go get some lunch but on the other hand I knew the truth and I wanted him to leave.

I immediately evaluated all the purchases I had made in my cart for our kids because I had seen he had spent so much money that I didn’t even dare spend on necessary items. He followed me out to my car and got in the passenger seat. The last time he sat there was when I confronted him on Christmas Day about what I saw on his phone.

I just started weeping uncontrollably as I sat frozen trying to get a hold of myself yet not even being able to identify what emotions I felt. He told me he was sorry. I was silent and still crying. After a few minutes his response was “Well this isn’t how I imagined this going. I can’t even handle this.” And with that he got out and left. I drove straight home confused and crawled into bed for a nap.

The next day I was told by our couples therapist that was his attempt to save our marriage. With Valentines being the next day I was optimistic knowing he’d have another chance and this time I’d be prepared and not cry.

Instead it was crickets from my husband. I again felt disposable and not worth loving or fighting for. Until that night when two separate Galentines baskets arrived from girl friends. I felt more love than I had felt in a long time!! I cried in gratitude.

I am also thankful for my Galentine’s Day this year with these amazing women in the White Lilac Foundation. They support women like me and you. We cry, create, sing, laugh, share and validate. Check them out on Facebook to join the group and get more information.

Happy Galentine’s Day to all the amazing women in my life! They have carried me through some of my darkest times and I am forever grateful. I am so lucky! I encourage you to send thankful or loving wishes to a girl friend today. ❤️

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