I cherish dearly the knowledge I have of the Atonement and what it means to me.

When I was 18 my mom died of cancer. After a few months I felt very alone as life had moved on and it was assumed I had as well. The hurt I felt from missing her so much made me question my ability to carry on with all the pain I felt. I craved her physical presence, to hear her voice, her laugh, to hug her, to feel her unconditional love and support. These were only some of what left me feeling so empty.

One night I finally just drove to where she was buried and although her headstone was still not placed I knelt to pray. I had a very candid conversation with God about the unfairness I felt about my situation and how I was traveling solo. I didn’t understand why He took a healthy woman that loved life, living, her family, God and others away from me and this Earth. I felt abandoned by God because this was not because of her choices or how she lived but a consequence we all were enduring because of Gods law. My heart was wounded and I was weak in body and spirit.

As I wept aloud I felt a warm sensation come over me that enveloped me in a hug filled with the unconditional love of Christ. I felt immediately light, healed, carried and understood.

In that moment it was made clear that the Atonement was not just about repairing sin but because Christ knew me, EVERYTHING about me. And because of this I was never alone.

This Easter I also celebrate that Christ did something difficult because He promised us and God. I am saved of my physical death because He is risen. And I get to see my mom and other loved ones again in addition to being made perfect through Him.

This testimony has sustained me through the challenges of my life including my most recent ones. Christ has literally carried me. My mom has been with me. And God has blessed me. And this is not just for me but everyone!

Happy Easter!

How do you make Easter more about Christ?

Artwork: “Broken For Us” by @paigepayne_creations.

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