My greatest honor of my life is being a mom to my boys.

When the truth came forward suddenly my entire identity was in question. For days I was recalling years of experiences, conversations and memories and I now saw it in the new distorted light it was. I knew what I thought it was but I also now knew there was another story I only had a tiny glimpse of.

In the confusion one truth remained consistent and clear always and that was my truth about being a mom.

I know I am the mom my boys need despite my imperfections and insecurities. I know I have made many mistakes especially as a mom but I also know I was doing the best I could with the information that I had and I have had to forgive myself for that.

I love the growth I have had over the years that has made me who I am because I have been pushed to my limits of love, sacrifice, sleep, charity, emotional and physical pain, prayer, faith, and hope.

I love the first time I heard those tiny heartbeats. I loved being pregnant and feeling them each move and hiccup. I love the gift of birth and the spiritual experience it was. I loved kissing those chubby cheeks and perfect little feet. I loved learning, singing, reading, tickling and wrestling with my boys. I have loved watching them grow up and become taller than me. I love that they motivate me to want to be better and live to my fullest potential. I love that they are easy to forgive me and that we laugh so often. I love being their biggest cheerleader and ultimately the person they get to call “Mom.” They are easy to love and I am honored they are mine!

Happy Mother’s Day!!

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