I remember vividly taking this picture after meeting my beautiful teacher and how excited I was to start Kindergarten. I was naive and optimistic but strong in Spirit knowing I was a Child of God. At times that phrase seemed generic and since it was said to everyone I had to really think about how this was unique to me.

Over the years as I have pondered what it means to be a Child of God I have come to know and understand that there is a Heavenly Father and Heavenly Mother that know me better than myself and are always cheering me on. I know there is something bigger than myself that has the ability to truly create miracles and give me blessings I never knew I even needed. I have recognized them and used that perspective to drive me in ways I never knew I was capable.

As I have had to rediscover my identity and who I am I have had to dig really deep. My trauma has caused me to question what is real or not and I found going back to before I was married has helped me remember who I have always been.

Part of my healing has been realizing that part of being a Child of God are my talents and abilities uniquely inherited to me by my Godly parents.

Even at this young age I loved music, singing, dancing, performing and being social. I loved the outdoors, learning, sports and competing. I was driven, goal oriented and loved to write, create and draw. And even then I was leader and willing to stand alone.

All this is still me but I am also now a mom. I believe we are still in a war against good and evil and I choose Christ. I have never wavered in my stance. I love my children so fiercely I would die for them and I would die protecting them. They are my priority as I try and help them recognize and develop their own Godly gifts so they can know without a doubt what it means to be a Child of God.

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