I love to travel and experience so much of Gods natural beauty. I feel His love and marvel at His massive capabilities.

I remember the times it was so dark and heavy I didn’t believe I could gather enough energy to move forward. I felt I was continually falling into a deep abyss with so much emotional and physical pain I couldn’t understand how to get out.

In these hours of desperation I turned and plead to God. I needed to have hope in something bigger than myself or my heartache. Something strong and powerful enough to take even part of it away. I couldn’t help but pray to God.

It was in these moments I felt Him. I saw his ability to lighten my burdens especially because of others through Him. Often the scriptures I learned from my mom and loved as a little girl would repeat in my mind from Ecclesiastes 3.

“To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.”

This reminded me I am allowed to feel and be all things.

In the past I missed being able to cry but then I got to where I had no more tears to give. I missed laughter and normalcy. In time I was able to find a balance between it all.

I love the people in my life that have been there for my family and me. I will never be able to repay them. I love the new me that is so much of what I used to be before. I have never felt more true to who I am. I love knowing there is a God that knows exactly what I have been through and what I can handle. I love knowing that I am a daughter of God with inherited godly gifts and talents.

How have you seen God in your trials?