I am so grateful for new beginnings.

There was a time not long ago I was in a dark hole and every time I tried to progress I felt the trap door beneath me dropping out sending me a little farther down below. I could see the light at the top but it seemed so far away and almost impossible to reach. In my climb out I have mourned and released losses of so many things including my ideals, my identity, and 21 years of marriage.

I love this picture because just after it was taken I was over come with so much happiness of blessings that I never knew was possible to ever feel. Reflecting back at what I had been through I knew I was now near the crest and part of my reward was being filled with this much JOY!

In my moment I was in my car after FaceTiming my son afar, waiting in traffic after viewing one of Gods most beautiful creations, singing to blasting music with my super fun kids, windows rolled down with the warm wind and sun on my skin and I knew…this is pure JOY! Gratitude literally engulfed my entire body and soul from the inside and out and touched on every one of my senses enveloping me in a huge hug of love to me from me.

I know that if had I never been in that abyss before I would not be able to experience my new life, new journey, new us and new me! And for that I am forever grateful for new beginnings.

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