About a year ago I was on a flight back home after being with one of my children and I wrote my first personal post about my new situation. I had felt I needed to share my story for some time and this was the most I could muster up at the time. I reflect on these words and feel the same even today. The difference is now I have walked on my new path to see what amazing opportunities it has provided that I never believed was possible. I have reconnected with old friends and been introduced to new ones. Thank you still for all those that continue to love and support my children and me. I have so much gratitude in my heart to know there is so much good around us every single day.
I never believed it was possible to be where I am today. I thought this happens to other people and was never to be my life. But this is my story and I have ended a challenging chapter I hope to never repeat. I have traveled through the darkest forest walking wounded, weeping and blinded to reach and discover the most beautiful path leading to hope. Through my journey I have seen and felt angels. Angels on earth from those around me that literally love, pray, serve and support my family. I have felt them from the other side not only from those that have passed on but those that are yet to come. They have carried me, given me strength to endure and reassured me with a knowledge to know that I am a deserving daughter of God. When I was young and I lost my mom it was one of the hardest things I had ever done and I came out stronger, more compassionate, and a greater understanding of the Atonement that God knows me on an intimate level offering unconditional love. Christ has fought for me already to know what I am feeling and to forgive me for my weaknesses. Through this new trauma I have wanted to protect my children from their own hurt and betrayal as the mirror we have been looking in our whole life has been shattered by someone we trusted and love. I too know that God knows my children even better than me and can be there for them in a way I am not even capable to do. Today I celebrate the chance at a rebirth of my life, of the new me and my unknown new life. Being thankful and aware that God knows my heart, has heard my prayers and has blessed and protected me even when I didn’t know I needed it. He prepared me to meet these hard challenges and has put old and new relationships in my life that I am eternally grateful for. I can never deny what I feel and know now. I pray for those suffering in dark places that feel like they are living a lie to keep it together for the sake of their family or marriage. We are all broken and struggling to find inner strength and peace. Cheers to my new and bright path that I walk on with faith and determination. I don’t know where it will lead me but I am optimistic and relieved. I have developed my wings and I’m ready to FLY!