I have been reminded about and shared this podcast several times in the last month and wanted to repost. I hope to offer some specific light and clarity to someone in a dark place. It was one of the first things I had the courage to listen to after my fist big D-day.

The podcast is “Relational and Betrayal Trauma” with Marnie Breecker. It originally validated and empowered me when I felt so numb and weak. It still reminds me that nothing is wrong with me in how I feel in my trauma.

I was originally given this podcast because soon after my discovery I explained to my therapist that I felt like a rape victim. I didn’t want to discount rape but I couldn’t put into words how I was feeling any differently. When I listened to this podcast, everything I heard was ME! I learned why I felt violated because I consented with him not having all the information that he was having sexual contact with other women.

What I ended up learning about the reality of my life, his choices and the overlap of lies I would NEVER have consented to him on an emotional, sexual, existential, life crisis, or relational way. And what’s worse is that he was my confidant I was used to turning to for comfort from the hurt even though he was emotionally unavailable, the cause of the pain and my abuser. This was opposite of my safe person yet I had believed he had been that person so I was very confused and hurt.

Please check it out and share it with someone you love.

There is hope in healing!!

Here is the link for Episode 21:

http://theaddictedmind.com/episode-21-relational…/

Here is the link for Episode 22:

https://theaddictedmind.com/episode-22-relational…

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