I recently recalled this podcast “Relational and Betrayal Trauma” with Marnie Breecker to share with a friend and so I listened to it again. It is SO good. It originally validated and empowered me when I felt so numb and weak and it still reminds me that nothing is wrong with me in how I feel in my trauma.

I have shared it with several clients since relistening and so I wanted to share here too hoping it will help someone out.

I was originally given this podcast because soon after my discovery I explained to my therapist that I felt like a rape victim. I didn’t want to discount rape but I couldn’t put into words how I was feeling any differently. When I listened to this podcast, everything I heard was ME! I leaned why I felt violated because I consented with him not having all the information that he was having sexual contact with other women.

What I ended up learning about the reality of my life, his choices and the overlap of lies I would NEVER have consented to him on an emotional, sexual, existential, life crisis, or relational way. And what’s worse is that after any of it he was my confidant I was used to try turning to for comfort from the hurt even though he was emotionally unavailable, the cause of the pain and my abuser. This was opposite of my safe person yet I had believed he had been that person so I was very confused and hurt.

I have sent this out several times in the last few days I wanted to offer some specific light and clarity to someone in a dark place. Please check it out and share it with someone you love.

There is hope in healing!!

Here is the link for Episode 21:

http://theaddictedmind.com/episode-21-relational…/

Here is the link for Episode 22:

https://theaddictedmind.com/episode-22-relational…/

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