I am so grateful for new beginnings.

There was a time not long ago I was in a dark hole and every time I tried to progress I felt the trap door beneath me dropping out sending me a little farther down below. I could see the light at the top but it seemed so far away and almost impossible to reach. In my climb out I have mourned and released losses of so many things including my ideals, my identity, and 21 years of marriage.

I love this spontaneous snapshot because when Mark and I were taking wedding pictures in the Utah desert, out of nowhere it began misting rain in the canyons behind us. Then suddenly a beautiful rainbow appeared. To our surprise and astonishment we quickly took some photos to capture the beauty of the unique situation. Finally we had a moment to pause and take in the feeling that possibly this represented Gods gift of a new beginning for us. It still hits me so deep in my soul knowing what we both had to go through to be ready and able to find eachother. I could not be more thankful for ALL the hard now.

Through my healing journey I have been overcome with so much happiness of blessings that I never knew was possible to ever feel. Reflecting back at what I had been through I knew that part of my reward was being filled with this much JOY!

After viewing one of Gods most beautiful creations with the warm wind and sun on my skin with my partner holding me I knew…this is pure JOY! Gratitude literally engulfed my entire body and soul from the inside and out and touched on every one of my senses enveloping me in a huge hug of love to me from me.

I know that if I had never been in that abyss before I would not be able to experience my new life, new journey, new us and new me! And for that I am forever grateful for new beginnings.

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