I remember the day he moved everything out.

I had the kids sleep away so they weren’t around to see it. People told me to be prepared to cry so I was surprised after he left that I actually felt like the house had been cleansed and a dark fog lifted. I felt so light and hopeful.

Shortly after my discovery we separated to see if we could work things out but he continued living two lives still lying to me wanting things to be back to what his “normal.”

I finally knew I couldn’t live with him without changes so with a lot of prayers and answers to prayers, I knew I had to let him go.

I never believed God would give me the answer to get divorced so I kept trying to get a different answer and new truths would surface solidifying my final decision. I didn’t trust myself because I had been deceived in my own marriage for 21 years but I knew I could trust God. I had more faith than I ever have had and knew God has given me strength to do hard things. My negative self talk would doubt my decisions and I would feel like maybe I was giving up or not being by his side through the hardest times. But I knew I put in my honest hard work for us and a marriage is about two people fighting hard together evenly yoked. And time and time again when I had hope for us, something new would tell me “Marni, it’s okay to let him go!!!”

My faith has developed into having so much trust in God that I am hopeful for my future. I felt so blessed for my little family and can see how God doesn’t want us to suffer in others choices. He can’t prevent it but can give us hope to remove ourselves and get inspiration to help us in our hurt.

I now have a new appreciation for single parents. I hope that we can have more compassion for them and the hard times they’re going through and especially their kids. The children are the ones especially that are living the consequences of others decisions. Give a hug, send a text or invite your single friend out to lunch. I know we are all doing the best we can and could ALL help each other find ways to feel faith, hope and trust from others that love us.

How have you felt Gods hands to love and serve you?