Trust was so violated in my previous marriage that I know it will take me a lifetime to recover. I struggle when experiences arise that I feel unsafe because of my new heightened awareness to honesty. My healthy reactions because of my trauma protect me and I try to be patient with the newness of it in me with my healing.

When I found his work phone I was in major shock and trauma and then everyone’s bank account of trust was immediately deleted including my own. Since that day I have been gradually refilling accounts of trust with those in my life. I have family and friends that have been contributing to their account of trust that was wiped out completely. And slowly over time and with consistency they have earned it back and I know I am capable of trust again. Others I have recognized I have to maintain boundaries so that I can trust in a way that feels safe to me.

I have also had to let go of old and new relationships that kept withdrawing from their account of trust to protect myself and I love this new found freedom.

I have also learned to trust in God. He has been the one constant giving me inspiration and promptings as I work to even trust myself. I know that He makes things visible to me when His timing is right.

I am thankful for following on promptings that in the moment didn’t make sense but now truth has made the reason for my actions very clear. He is protecting me still!

“Trust is earned, respect is given, loyalty is demonstrated. Betrayal of any of those is to lose all three.”

Trust is just one of the topics we will be discussing in my 12 week course, The University of You: women’s group coaching session.

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I look forward to seeing you soon!!

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