Soon after my discovery I explained to my therapist that I felt like a rape victim. I didn’t want to discount rape but couldn’t put into words how I was feeling any differently. She shared this podcast with me and everything I heard was ME! How I felt like a rape victim because had I known at the time what I ended up learning about the reality of my life, his choices and the overlap of lies I would NEVER have consented to him on an emotional, sexual, existential, life crisis, or relational way. And what’s worse is that after any of it he was my confidant I was used to try turning to for comfort from the hurt even though he was emotionally unavailable and the cause of the pain.
 
Because I have sent this out a few times in the last few days I wanted to offer some specific light and clarity to someone in a dark place. Early on my brain was too numb to hear anything just randomly sent to me. 
Here is the link: