Self Care
After the discovery I felt very anti-social and weak physically and emotionally. My therapist lovingly demanded I do some simple self-care to help feed my mind, body and spirit with light.
I remember the first time I drew up a bubble bath and listened to my first podcast that helped start me in the right direction of strengthening myself and healing my soul. I then went to my hot yoga class and although I had minimal strength from lack of sleep and losing so much weight I went and wept the whole class. And as I sweat heavily it was like my body was weeping sweat tears as well. At the end as I lay on my mat in meditation I started thinking of all that I was thankful for just like all the previous times I had in my life at the end of a class. But of course this time it was different. I could hear my two friends nearby also crying in silence and I was so thankful I was there and I was with them. I was thankful for my body and how impressed I was that it was strong despite feeling so weak. I was thankful for my children and their strength and resilience. I was thankful for my mom that I could feel her offering me strength and care from the other side even when I was so numb. I could feel the prayers of others that helped me be able to do more than I knew I should. It helped me wake up and function for my kids every single day. This helped clear my mind and focus less on his choices that hurt us and instead of healing. It gave me the boost and confidence I needed to put one foot in front of the other and start my journey in my new life. My body was familiar with yoga already and it was like this spoke to my soul to wake up and feel alive!
What self care do you do for yourself?
