One of the Four Fold Path is to tell you story and speak out the truth of what happened and validate it.
After the discovery I was so done with the lies that I told my children that we share our truth of what happened. We didn’t need to lie or cover up anything. I wasn’t proactively sharing my situation but some of my kids coped in sharing with their friends. I wasn’t prepared for the text I got from one of my best friends asking me if it was true what was being said about us at school with the kids. It was true that we were separated and he had made devastating choices. I felt embarrassed and ashamed to admit the truth because behind it I also felt flawed that I wasn’t enough. I had failed as a wife and he had chosen so much over us. I was disposable even after he knew everything about me…my good and my bad. I was not enough!
It was a hard pill to swallow knowing we were the scandal everyone was talking about. It actually became a relief I didn’t have to be the one telling everyone as people started dating the truth. I didn’t feel like it was gossip and I know everyone was trying to make sense of the truth themselves and would ask me all sorts of questions that I wish I had answers to myself. But with the truth came love, support, prayers, strength, and resources I didn’t know existed in my situation. There also came peace and understanding that this was not my fault and I was not alone.
I have felt strongly to share my story even though I have also felt very vulnerable. I was so appreciative to all that helped me through the dark days and continue to help me process and navigate my new life. My goal has been to help others to know they aren’t alone. That God lives and loves us. Angels are are around us. That there are so many resources available to validate our feelings. And that just because I am divorced my life is still a success. The fact that I chose to remove my children from a situation that was toxic and that doesn’t mean I failed.
I am so thankful for all of you that have loved and supported me through this process. I have met so many that compliment my desire to help others and continue to teach and enhance me. I have also been in contact with so many that I am thankful I am able to help in even a small way. So thank you! I love my tribe of broken strong warriors!!